#7 pushing limits...

I woke up sick today... Just felt nauseated - told marlin I needed an extra ten minutes.. This was the first day I REALLY thought about not going running... And I am so proud of myself that I didn't give up. We ran for a challenging 3 minutes today, which I managed to run all the way through.... The first time... The second 3 minute run I pushed until I "hit the wall" and just couldn't keep even the slowest jogging pace. Had to fall back and walk the last minute of the run. I have to say I'm disappointed that I couldn't finish - but I know I can turn that disappointment into the biggest triumph of my life... When I make it to the finish line in the ten miler, it will be the end Of the hardest journey of my life.
A goal I would have said I couldn't conquer a year ago...
I have a mission, a goal, that motivates me everyday... I'm running to get away. I'm running from diabetes. I have changed my diet, my habits, and now my outlook... When I run the ten miler I have no doubt my sugar will not only be under control, but that I will no longer fight daily with pin pricks in my fingers, or with that crappy feeling that comes from my sugar being too high or too low - even when I eat right...
I'm also going to look into raising money with my run for a diabetes charity. I know so many people who fight with diabetes - from family to friends - from people I have known all my life - to people I really only know on Facebook. It's time to find a cure. I'm one of the lucky ones, I have type 2, and they say that with the right diet and exercise it can go away... And my goal is to win that fight, and hopefully motivate others to lead a healthier lifestyle...

Well, I rambled a bit today, but hey, it's my blog, I'll ramble if I want to...

So to finish up, I pushed today and didn't meet my goal, but I didn't fail... I will finish the run Thursday morning, and I will push myself farther than I have before and I will get faster, run farther, and feel better afterwards


DISCLAIMER:
I feel as if this blog may not be completely same this morning, but honestly, runners are crazy- and while I may not be a good runner, I'm getting there... And what do you expect at 7 am after running almost 2 miles?


So until next time...